Friday, January 20, 2012

Be Your Own Champion!

Hi Everyone,

Today I had the pleasure of shooting new headshots with Joanna Brooks, who is such a lovely woman and boy can she take a picture!  From the shots I saw, I was chuffed with the results.  For anyone who hasn't had headshots done, let me take you through the process.  The night before the shoot, I go through my whole wardrobe and essentially bring almost all of it to the shoot.  You think I am kidding, which I am, but I literally took 3/4 of my wardrobe with me today.  I had a full suitcase of clothes, with jewelry, shoes, hair essentials, makeup, hair bands, etc.  When I arrived at Joanna's, she greeted me with a hug and some extra hands, since I also had clothes on hangers along with the suitcase and my pocketbook.  So, I looked like a bag lady, but cleaner and crazier.  I then got the opportunity to meet Joel, who was my makeup artist.    Joanna and I went through my whole wardrobe and then we discussed the roles that my three looks were to represent according to what I wanted.  So after that, I hopped in the makeup chair to get all "purty" for the camera.

During the makeup process, this is the time for everyone to get to know each other.  I had met Joanna last year and I really liked her style and I got the sense that she would be able to capture who I am because I felt comfortable with her.  Getting to talk with her and Joel I was reminded of the fact that she made me comfortable.  During this whole process, she had music playing on her ipod and I have to say I couldn't help wiggling in my seat to the music or singing along to Adele when she started to play.

This headshot session was all about me getting headshots with my glasses.  For the past 4 years or so I have been forcing myself to be this woman who isn't me in the headshots.  All my past headshots are of me without my glasses and sometimes the makeup is too much for me personally.  In real life, I just don't look like that and in the past year, I have been meeting so many people in the industry with my glasses that they can't remember who I am by the old headshot, it just isn't me.

After each look, Joanna would let me see a few of the photos and they look fantastic!  The makeup is natural, my eyes pop in them and I have a personality shining through.  I could see how agents and casting directors would cast me all of a sudden, just by the shot.  It is pretty amazing!

On another front, the restaurant I work for closed for renovations, so I am going to be doing temp work in the mean time.  I have an interview on Monday and I am excited about it, because the temp agency works with a lot of non profit.  As some of you know, I have a urge to change the world, but I haven't really been able to find the balance between my love for acting and wanting to do something that means something in the long run.  I think I might have figured something out though.   It is funny how life works, because I wrote a bucket list last week and one of the things I put down was to volunteer with the program No One Dies Alone.  It is a program I read about in O Magazine a few years ago and I never made time to sign up in NYC, so now that I have time, I signed up for it last week and I have training on Sunday.  I am also hard at work writing up the last of my webisodes and I am so excited for it!  I don't know what has happened in the last few weeks, but I finally understand that if I want to get out of the restaurant business, get out of it.  If I want to write, I write.  If I want to help others, I help others. If I want to act, I get new headshots :P  I have to put one foot in front of the other and believe in myself.  That has been a hard lesson for me to learn, because for some reason I never thought of myself worthy of my dreams and aspirations.  It wasn't until I began studying at the acting conservatory that I knew that if I wanted to be an actor, I had to learn to be my own champion.  It has only been in the past week that I have realized I can be my own champion in all parts of my life.  How wonderful is that?  I have a headshot to prove it!

Monday, January 9, 2012

I Wish Entertainment Weekly Was Hiring

Hi Everyone,

With the new year comes a new outlook.  I don't do this every year, just to clarify, but this year, since I became unemployed I decided to use the free time to begin to look inward and maybe mend some things about myself that aren't in the best shape.  I began reading Jack Canfield's The Success Principles and there has been a slight shift in my thinking, toward the positive.  There is a wonderful quote from Stan Dale that resonates with me, "I've always been the opposite of a paranoid.  I operate as if everyone is part of a plot to enhance my well being."  As soon as I read that, something inside me understood those words and I couldn't help but smile.

This past week hasn't been the easiest.  I have been to 60 different restaurants, had two interviews and nothing has come of it.  So I moved on to the government of California's unemployment website and began applying for jobs there.  I have reached out to friends on Facebook and I have been fortunate that a few friends tried to help me out to no avail.  Now, a month ago I would have thrown my hands up to the heavens and screamed, "What the hell do I have to do to get a job?"  I did that last time and I got a job within a week after trying for five months.  But this time, I get the feeling that maybe I need to move to a more creative way of thinking and applying myself, because the old way isn't working anymore and I think the restaurant business and I are close to caput anyway.

So if I had my wish I would love to get a job with Entertainment Weekly.  I would be happy just to be getting people coffee and talking TV, movies and music with everyone.  I love reading the articles each week and I scour the website to read the recaps of shows, even though I watched them in realtime, just because I like each recappers sense of humor and their pure honesty in their dorkiness for their love of the show they are recapping.   I laugh out loud sometimes and more than is reasonable I catch myself shaking my head in agreement to something they say in the recap.  It's like I am reading a recap from myself...

So God if you are listening....

Until next time.

All my love,

Tara

Friday, January 6, 2012

Being Aware and Loving in 2012

Happy New Year Everyone!!!!

I hope that 2012 has been shaping up to be a stellar year so far!  I am not a big stickler for making resolutions in the New Year, due to I never fulfill them and when I seriously look over my resolutions, they always seem superficial and not very inspiring.  It always seems as if I am punishing myself with my resolutions, so this year I began keeping a gratitude journal.  It has been difficult just because I know how hard I am on myself and that is what I am trying to overcome.

I got to spend time with my family this holiday and it was wonderful.  It was also a great time to honestly assess where I am difficult and how I deal with my family.  I am not proud of the times I let them get on my nerves, but during the visit I began to be aware of my thoughts on the situation and where I can change it to be more positive.  I noticed I don't have patience for going the long way around (Dad's driving), I also let my Mom's stream of consciousness speaking out loud get to me, when in reality she is just glad to have me to talk to.  When it comes to my sister, I always have to be in control because in my head she is still the baby not the 27 year old she is now LOL!  I became conscious of her nerves getting frayed over my inability to let her do what she wanted.  I kept my mouth shut a lot of the time and so I learned I have an opinion for everything :)  I always told myself I am not that opinionated, but that isn't the truth.  Truth is, I don't verbalize a lot of my opinions.  Opinions are good to a point, but if they judge family and friends and yourself, they aren't so healthy.  I am trying to learn to make my thoughts healthy, positive and loving.  Some days the thoughts are so loving and strong and other days it is a struggle to find one thought that is positive, but that one thought and my stubbornness to find one positive thought keeps me moving.

What are some of your ways of staying positive?  I would love to hear from you!  Until next time...

All my love,

Tara