I realized today that I only have one more post after this and I got a little sad. I have come to enjoy writing the blog from day one. I have always known I write to release tension and work through my thought processes. Writing has been a healing force for me since I was a child. Through this blog, I have begun writing a diary everyday like I did in elementary, high school and college. I then moved to writing stories, books and plays after the Peace Corps.
The blog has been a very strange experience at the same time that it has been enjoyable. It is a little strange that my blog shows up on other people's websites and I have followers. I have learned a lot about the internet and what I don't and don't mind sharing online. As I said, I have been ignoring relationships because I have put my life on here, and haven't really taken the time to do the same for my friends and family. It is a strange relationship, the internet. Everyone can see it if you choose. Everyone can follow your life if you want. It can give a very insecure person a sense of belonging and fellowship because of comments and a fanbase, but it doesn't fill the hole, that loneliness creates. I will be the first to tell you that moving to California was a lonely experience for the first six months.
The blog was a friend during that time. It was a place I could come to, to jot down the confusion, anxiety, frustration, excitement, jubilation, loneliness, and chronicle the small steps I was making to form a life here in this new environment. I am grateful that I will have this record of this time in my life, because I don't think it will ever be created again in my lifetime. I have been blessed with opportunities and things have fallen into place here, like out of a movie. I really can't believe my luck! I hope that the end of this blog is just the beginning of bigger opportunities and more open doors than I could ever imagine.
Until tomorrow. Take care and be safe.
All my love,