Friday, October 22, 2010

Signing Off for Now

Hi Everyone,

So here it is, the last post of my blog for a while and it will be anti climatic.  Today, was just a regular day for me, which I think is the way I should end this blog.  I went to work in the California sunshine, which presented itself after a two week absence and I got to make some money and come home.

I came home, made lunch/dinner and began working on my close up work for my on camera class I take on Tuesdays.  I emailed a bunch of associates and friends to thank them for working with them in Brad Garrett's class, and am now getting ready to go over the script again for A Scrooge and Marley Christmas Carol.

Ten months ago, I didn't know what an actor's life was like, I had sporadic doses of it in NYC, but now I am starting to get a groove going of classes and projects.  The classes and projects are giving me inspiration to write again, which give me the strength to write my own projects and get me excited for what is going on right now in my life.  I have been very fortunate and have been blessed ten fold over the past year and I really can't fully grasp the positivity I feel in my life.  I am at my poorest financially that I ever have been, however I feel so blessed spiritually.  I must keep moving one step at a time toward my dream.  And I thank you for following me along the path during these past 10 months, it has been a blast!

Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Counting My Blessings

Hi Everyone,

I realized today that I only have one more post after this and I got a little sad.  I have come to enjoy writing the blog from day one.  I have always known I write to release tension and work through my thought processes.  Writing has been a healing force for me since I was a child.  Through this blog, I have begun writing a diary everyday like I did in elementary, high school and college.  I then moved to writing stories, books and plays after the Peace Corps.

The blog has been a very strange experience at the same time that it has been enjoyable.  It is a little strange that my blog shows up on other people's websites and I have followers.  I have learned a lot about the internet and what I don't and don't mind sharing online.  As I said, I have been ignoring relationships because I have put my life on here, and haven't really taken the time to do the same for my friends and family.  It is a strange relationship, the internet.  Everyone can see it if you choose.  Everyone can follow your life if you want.  It can give a very insecure person a sense of belonging and fellowship because of comments and a fanbase, but it doesn't fill the hole, that loneliness creates.  I will be the first to tell you that moving to California was a lonely experience for the first six months.

The blog was a friend during that time.  It was a place I could come to, to jot down the confusion, anxiety, frustration, excitement, jubilation, loneliness, and chronicle the small steps I was making to form a life here in this new environment.  I am grateful that I will have this record of this time in my life, because I don't think it will ever be created again in my lifetime.  I have been blessed with opportunities and things have fallen into place here, like out of a movie.  I really can't believe my luck!  I hope that the end of this blog is just the beginning of bigger opportunities and more  open doors than I could ever imagine.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Self Knowledge

Hi Everyone,

It rained again in California, but thankfully I got to go to work today.  I was the only one on and I ended up with 5 tables and worked 2 hours.  I thank God for the few bucks I made.  I needed it.

I read the script for A Scrooge and Marley Christmas Carol and I am working on character work.  I realized since last night, that I need to keep working on my craft so that I trust my instincts and go with my gut.  It is a big issue for me, trust.  I don't trust a lot of people and I don't trust myself in the circumstances that are the most important to me.  It is like I subconsciously sabotage myself.  I am slowly licking my wounds and moving forward.  One small step at a time.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Heart Mending

Hi Everyone,

So today was the big day for the Brad Garrett showcase.  Unfortunately, my worse nightmare came true.  Two of the casting directors thought I was trying to be too much like Meg Ryan.  Can you say arrow through the heart?  Ouch.  I take full responsibility for it, of course, I knew instinctually that my performance was off the mark.  Instead of going with my instinct and taking Brad's notes, I used the notes as my end all be all.  Right now, I am so angry at myself because I feel as if I let Brandon down, because the casting directors loved what he did.

I talked to Brad afterward and he said, "Tara, you lost your vulnerability.  You lost you.  I didn't see you playing up there."  I took his notes to the extreme.  Brad also then said, "Tara, the one thing I will tell you coming from experience, don't beat yourself up! Keep going!  You have a quality about you that makes me feel for you and root for you and you can't take what was said today and beat yourself up with it."

Ah, Brad, that is what I was put on this earth to do.  I'm a Virgo.  It has to be perfect.  But he knew how worried I was about being compared to Meg Ryan, because we talked about it earlier this week.  The good thing about all of this is that I know how much I want to be an actor and I know what I did wrong.  Poor Brandon feels bad, because he never felt as if I was playing Meg Ryan, because he always felt that I was giving him things to work with, and play off of.  So I am taking this moment to let it go.  No more beating myself up, no more tears, no more what ifs.  I am going to go to bed and wake up tomorrow morning and read the script for A Christmas Carol and turn my frown upside down.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Monday, October 18, 2010

New Opportunities and Excitement

Hi Everyone,

I actually got to work today even though it was raining all day.  I made $10 bucks and I also got to clock in 3 hours.  I will take it.

Tomorrow is the big night for Brad Garrett's class, so Brandon and I went to the local coffee shop and actually rehearsed our scene around others, which gave us more to discover and play with in the environment.  I am really excited about the scene.  We have really worked hard on it and I am just excited to see how it goes tomorrow.  I think I am so excited because I know that I have done everything I could in the last two weeks discovering and playing and refining the scene to make it the best we could.  I am very proud of it.  Also tomorrow is my first class for on camera technique.  I haven't had an on camera class since I graduated from SFT 3 years ago, so I know I am long overdue and I have the nervous jitters about it that make me look forward to it.

I also had my company meeting tonight at Knightsbridge and I found out that I have been cast as Mrs. Cratchett for A Scrooge and Marley Christmas Carol.  I am very excited!!! Jen pointed out that usually when I say, that I don't think I got something or that I am sure that I wouldn't be cast in it, I get it.  It is very true.  The show opens Dec 4th and has a three week run before the Christmas holiday.  They are going to have matinees for the family, so I am very excited.  I was a little nervous this year, that it would be difficult for me to get into the holiday spirit without any snow or frigidness, but I think this would do just fine!!! LOL!  So, now all I have to do is win the lottery and my life would be perfect :)

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Busy Sunday

Hi Everyone,

Another rainy day in Southern California started off with an early audition at Knightsbridge Theatre.  I auditioned for Mrs. Cratchett and I had to sing!!! What?!  I figured that I was going to be asked to sing since it is a musical version of A Christmas Carol I was auditioning for, but that did not simmer the jitters I got when I was actually asked to sing.  I can sing in the shower, in the car, and drunkenly at Karaoke  and I have no problem with that, but to have to sing to two actors I know who are singers is a bit daunting.  But I had a fantastic, slightly foolish embarrassing time singing Jingle Bells!

I got home at 11am and began cleaning the house before Brandon came over and we rehearsed our scene from When Harry Met Sally.  I am very excited about the scene and I feel strong in my work with it.  I pray that it translates on Tuesday when we perform it for everyone and guests.  I usually don't talk about my acting job, since a lot of things fall through before production, etc, but I have this giddy instinctual feeling that something big is going to happen on Tuesday.  Not necessarily to me personally, but it will affect me personally.  We will see if my instincts are right in the next few days.

Lastly, I got to speak to friends and family I haven't spoken to in a very long time.  It is comforting to know that over time, some things are still the same and that even with time we are able to connect.  It is always a bit awkward talking to friends and siblings I haven't spoken to in so long because I don't know exactly where to begin, because I can't remember where I left off.  But my soul was giddy to reconnect over the weekend with people I have been woefully pushing aside by using the excuse, "I will call them when I have more time".  That never works!  I keep telling myself, "You have to make time."  Duh!  So my inner self is actually a lot quieter from catching up with four out of the seven people I love the most!  Aaaaaahhhh....

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Life As I Know It

Hi Everyone,

Today I worked for 1 hours and made a whopping $2 because it rained again and it sucks!  I like that I get to work outside when it is nice out, but in the past month the weather has been rainy and cold and it is hurting my bank account big time.  I applied to the local bagel shop down the road from me because I saw a Help Wanted sign as I was going to the CVS.  We will see.

Tomorrow morning I have an audition for A Christmas Carol, so cross your fingers for me.  I am auditioning to play Mrs. Cratchett.  Personally, I think I look too young to play Mrs. Cratchett, but I don't care, I just want to be a part of it, because I love A Christmas Carol.  Every year, I have to watch the 1951 version with Alastair Sim.  I think his take on Scrooge is the most genuine of all the Scrooges.  I always love when he wakes up on Christmas morning and does his crazy little dance and scares the housekeeper with his rambling.  It hits me in the heart each time.

Yesterday, since I didn't have to work, I made a fantastic split pea soup that I finally got to sample today.  I was a little worried, because this would be my first vegetarian version without the ham.  I was afraid that it wasn't going to be thick enough or tasty enough, but I was so wrong.  It was thick, tasty and goopy and delicious.  I am learning slowly different recipes for things I am used to making for myself for dinner vegan style.

I have to rehearse a little before I go to bed, so I will talk to you tomorrow.

Until then.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Friday, October 15, 2010

MACBEEZY!

Hi Everyone,

Tonight, Jen and I saw the musical, MacBeezy, a hip opera, inspired by the Scottish play by Shakespeare.  It was adapted from MacBeth and music and lyrics were also written by my fellow company member at Knightsbridge and it was FAB-U-LOUS!!!! M-A-C-B-E-E-Z-Y!  Kelly rewrote the play because she teaches in inner city Los Angeles and she wanted to teach the kids Shakespeare.  She knew she wouldn't be able to hold their interest with the original text, so she rewrote it and had her husband assist in lyrics and music to put music and rapping into the storyline.  I cannot say enough about the production!  I was so impressed and so inspired by it!  It was wonderful!

I also came to a big decision tonight.  I know I said that I would write the blog until the end of the year, but I think I am going to amend that and say that I am going to have the last post next Friday.  I find because I write the blog everyday I don't take the time to keep in touch with friends and family I would on a regular basis if I didn't have the blog.  I have been woefully absent from friends' lives, that it is going to take a while to rebuild to the level they were before.  The blog has been fantastic for me to write, but it is time to move on.  If something huge should happen in my life, I will be sure to update, but for now I am taking a break and taking care of relationships I have ignored for far too long.  Thank you to everyone who has been following.  It has been fantastic!  I hope that all of you stay in touch and that just because you don't read my words everyday means we don't keep up with each other.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Keeping My Energy Contained

Hi Everyone,

I started a slightly different schedule at work.  I now work Thursdays instead of Tuesdays, which means that I really don't have a day off, because Tuesdays are when I have both of my acting classes.  I hope that changing my day works out.

I feel very weird lately in the fact that I have all this energy that wants things done now, even though I know that it must take a bit.  For example, I want to write a few scenes for myself so that I can get footage for a reel to show agents and managers of my work, but I know that I won't be able to write, film and edit them in a day.   My inspiration and hope is keeping me awake at night, figuring out who I can talk to about it and who I want to be a part of it.  I really would like to work with actors I feel comfortable with and trust.  I don't have that support system that I had in NYC and I crave it now.  I am finally understanding that if I want control in my acting career I need to take control.  So tonight I will be writing.  I already know what kind of characters I would like to play, so I have to write scenes that show it.  Wish me luck.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I Am In Control!

Hi Everyone,

As I live day after day as an actor/human, I learn over and over again that I must make things happen for myself.  For the past 10 months of my living in California, I am learning that this town is all about selling yourself.  It has been difficult finding the avenues that are good for me.  I have learned that I am more behind in the game than I originally thought.  That is okay.  I am glad that I am only two years in the game and realize that instead of 10 years.

I have a lot of work that I must do to get close to attaining my dream of being a regular cast member on a television show.  I can take all the classes I want, but I also have to network, and produce my own stuff if I want to make my dream happen faster.  I never gave much thought to IMDb and how much it is a staple in every entertainment office in the world.  I don't have any credits on IMDb.  That is one thing I must work on.

Another thing is getting my reel in order.  Which would give casting directors and agents an idea of my work and to see what I look like on camera.  Which then would hopefully lead to more auditions, and then SAG eligibility.  I have the classes part down, I am getting better at networking.  In the  past three months I have met so many wonderful people it isn't funny, but now I need to take those classes and the networking and make it work for me so that I can get the reel, IMDb credits and SAG eligibility to move to the next level.

I realize that it is all about control and right now I don't feel like I have control of anything.  I feel like I am doing everything that teachers, peers, and books say that you need to do, but then I do them and nothing comes of it.  That isn't enough for me.  I need to feel as if I am doing everything in my power to move forward.  So I have begun to write.  Write scenes for my reel.  Scenes of characters I want to play.  I have begun to think of actors I've met and want to work with and collaborate with, here in L.A. to make my scenes come alive on camera.  I have begun working on envisioning myself as characters in plays and shows and began working on the material from them as if I have the part.

It has made me nervous, anxious because now that I am doing things to make my dream come true I am afraid that nothing will come of it.  Fear is the only thing that keeps us limited.  It curves our potential to so-so instead of phenomenal and strong.  I believe that my anger outburst I had yesterday is stemmed in that fear, however that fear fuels me.  It makes me know just how important this dream is to me.  It is so important that the thought of it never coming true makes me nauseous!  I would rather fail miserably than not have done anything at all.  This is it.  This is my truth.  This is my reason of being!  So, fear don't fail me now!

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Lessons Revisited

Hi Everyone,

As the people closest to me know I have an awful temper and it doesn't show very much, but when it does I am my worst enemy.  Lately, I could feel it about to blow and the littlest things were setting me off toward the big explosion.  It came today.

I hate when it happens.  I always feel enormously guilty about the things I say that are so hard to take back and act as if they weren't said, especially to the person it happens to.  I also don't like that when I am hurt I act like a petulant child.  It ends up that I hurt myself the most in all of the equations, but I still don't change the way I express it.  I've been doing it since I was two.  My parents just say that I use more grown up words now than when I was two.

Thank God I have my sister who is able to listen and not judge and let me cry out all my frustration and hurt.  Because that is where all the anger stems from.  Usually after I vent I am able to let it go, but I find as I get older it is harder to forgive myself.

It was actually great that I had class today, because I could focus on something that had nothing to do with my self evaluation and self guilt.  I always use my Catholic upbringing as an excuse for my self guilt, but I am sure if I was an atheist I would still feel that way.  It aggravates me that I have such a strong sense of right and wrong, that I am not able to act nonchalant with myself .  My life would be a lot easier that way.   I take that back, I actually like that I have a strong sense  of right and wrong.  I might feel guilty when I do something ugly, but it also gives me confidence in myself when I know I am doing what is right for others and myself.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Monday, October 11, 2010

Ho Hum I Have Nothing to Write

Hi Everyone,

I have gone a whole 10 months writing this blog and haven't really ever come up empty on what to talk about, alas, tonight I have.  I could go on and on about work, my rehearsal, the book I am reading, or tv shows I am kind of watching, but I feel that is just repeating what I have talked about yesterday or the day before.

I don't have a topic that as gotten me inspired to talk about like Waiting for Superman.  I don't have any friends visiting this week and the show is over.  I realized that I haven't gone bike riding in weeks and I haven't gone hiking either.  Tomorrow we are going to celebrate Jen's birthday, she wants to go to the movies, so that should be fun, but besides that I just want to take a nap.  My schedule has been pretty full lately and for anyone who knows me when I get tired, I get cranky.  It has taken 3 months, but now I am getting cranky and need a few nights of good sleep.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Making Pie

Hi Everyone,

I had a full load today.  I went to Pilates class again and Antony again beat me up, but I feel stronger and better than the first class.  He focused more on our legs this week, so I have a feeling my thighs and glutes are going to hurt tomorrow.

I then rehearsed again with Brandon on our scene and I think I found some interesting stuff I can use for Sally.  I also wanted to get myself in the autumn mood, so I made a pumpkin pie from scratch.  I actually baked the pumpkin, peeled it and then made the pie.  It came out pretty good.  It is a little too sweet for me due to the condensed milk I used, but it tastes like pie from the store, so I am happy.  Even though it is October, California has no fall to speak of.  All this week it will be in the 80s and I am having a hard time with it.  Fall is my favorite season, so I like taking out my sweaters and layering up and drinking tea  and making soups, but it is too hot to do such things.  If I was to decide to move back to the East coast it would be all because of autumn.  So this is the test.

I was happy today, that my Giants actually crushed it!  They have had a rough patch so early in the season, I hope this is it.  At the beginning of every season I always hope for a Manning SuperBowl.  Meaning, I would love if the Colts and the Giants went head to head, just because.  I am a huge fan of Peyton's as a quarterback, but the Giants are my team, so it would be a very passionate game for me.  So I hope the Mannings lead their teams to victory this season, so they can make my dream come true :)

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Workin, Workin, Workin

Hi Everyone,

I got to work today sans the Fraulein outfit I have been known to wear these past few weeks.  It was because the patio was closed for a private party and I had the pleasure of working the inside taking tables that weren't from the party.  I was so happy that Erik did that for me, because then I knew I would make some money.  Plus it was pretty laid back and stress free compared to the party.

I also rehearsed with my scene partner, Brandon for our When Harry Met Sally scene.  Can I just say, how difficult it is to say words that I know by heart in my own way.  I wanted so badly to just play Meg Ryan because she was perfectly cast in that role.  Brandon and I had to work on our automatic response to play Meg Ryan and Billy Crystal, since both of us know the movie so well.  I have a feeling it is going to be difficult, but I am going to try my darndest to make it my own.

Tomorrow is my second class of Pilates with Antony and I am not prepared.  I haven't done any of the the pilates moves since Kimmie left on Monday and I have been eating atrociously since Kimmie visited that I don't feel very prepared to feel strong and skinny.  I still am having stomach issues from the cheese I had on Monday and I also had cheese last night at Rachelle's party.  I haven't felt this nauseous since I had food poisoning in Mali and I just have to wait it out.  I keep telling myself to force myself through it, because around my family I won't really have the ability to stay on my strict vegan lifestyle, especially during the holiday, but I have to remember days like today when I feel so horrible it is better to pass on the broccoli with cheese, ya know what I'm sayin?

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Rare Thoughts

Hi Everyone,

Today was my friend Rachelle's birthday and we celebrated it with the family.  Aunt Peggy made this massive dinner with chocolate cake and ice cream and it was delicious.  I haven't been able to hang out with my cousins or my aunt for the past month due to the show, classes, work and life in general, but it was good to be around them even if they were in rare form tonight.

On a totally different note, I think I need to look for another job.  Today was a beautiful day, and it was Friday, but in the past three weeks, they have been putting two extra people on and I have gone from making over $100 a shift to $30-40 a shift on a Friday.  Friday and Saturday were my money days and now I don't even make enough to cover a tank of gas.  Plus, this past Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday rained cats and dogs, so I made $17 on Monday and $7 on Tuesday and they called me to tell me not to come in on Wednesday.  So for the past 4 shifts I have made less than $75!  Nope not going to cut it.  So Sunday I have the day off, I am going to take Jen to the movies for her birthday and rehearse my final scene for Brad's class with my scene partner and then I am going to start calling people about jobs.  Wish me luck!!!!

On a totally different different note, I keep having the song, I Want to Hold Your Hand in my head.  I know it is because I just watched the episode of Glee, that had me bawling when that song was sung.  But when I sing it to myself it is the Beatle's version of the song I hear.  It is only one stanza that I repeat over and over in my head and it makes me happy.  Does anyone have certain songs that get stuck in their head from time to time.  I remember junior year of high school everyday at 5:15am I would wake up to Tom Petty's, Free Fallin and I literally had that song stuck in my head for all of 1993.  Now every time I hear that song, I can't help belting it out as if I am 16 all over again.  I am laughing at the memory.

Does anyone have any song memories they would like to share?

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Waiting For Superman

Hi Everyone,

I noticed in the last two days I have been on my "something must be done" kick.  Tonight, I saw the documentary, Waiting for "Superman".  It is about the state of the U.S. education system.  And it isn't pretty.  I have learned a lot about the system due to my sister and the trials and tribulations she must go through as a teacher.  But this movie, opens the spectrum to what the U.S. would be like in 10 years.

They followed students from D.C., L.A., NYC and Silicon Valley.  They picked mostly urban schools due to the higher drop out rate there, but as they did their research rural areas were also just as high as urban areas.  Most 8th graders are between 12%-35% of where they should be in reading and math depending on the state as a whole.  Our students are at the same learning level as students from 1971, but in 1971 there was a 12% chance students went to college, now in 2010 one must go to college.  One parent was asked, "Why do you want your daughter to go to college?"  She answered, "I want her to have a career, not a job."  That resonated with me.  I think that is what my parents wanted for me and my siblings.  They wanted us to have a better life.

I don't want to give too much a way , but the children in this documentary are children and they are the reason for our future.  I was angered at the bureaucracy that the education system has created along with the government, that has hindered the system to grow and compete against developing countries, like China and India.  The statistics alone are maddening and inspire me to do something.  There are children from low income homes that want to have a better life, they want to succeed.  In the end it is the adults they depend on as teachers, principals and school board members that cheat them out of a good education.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Something Must Be Done

Hi Everyone,

Tonight I am going to write about a topic that has been bothering me a lot in the last few days.  Recently there have been a slew of stories about young gay youths committing suicide because of bullying.  The particular story of the college student whose roommate secretly filmed him having sex with another man and then putting it on the internet for all to see really got me angry and my heart goes out to the family of the student who committed suicide because of it.  Why would anyone do such a thing?  It makes me not want to have children if there are going to be people like that or people who defend the boy who taped it.  What events happened in the  "tapers" life that makes it okay to treat others with such disregard?

Jen and I were talking about it this afternoon and we both wondered if children born from 1990 on don't have the social skills, the interaction skills or the sense of right and wrong that a lot of us grew up on because they are inundated with technology and reality television.  For example, most teenagers now don't interact with one another by talking, they interact by texting, internet, and email.  They walk around with either a cell phone or an ipod in their ear and are glued to their laptops in their rooms watching and "talking" to friends online.  When I was 16, I had to listen to the radio in my room.  The computer was in the "computer room" and was used by the whole family and I was only allowed to talk on the phone before 7PM.  Every other time I had to actually see my friends and hang out with them.

I see a huge difference between my sister and I.  She was born 8 years after me and whenever she is around she is always on her phone, either taking calls, or texting.  To the point I have said many times, I think it is rude that she visits me, but she isn't really giving me her time.  Granted, I use the internet on a daily basis, check my email I don't know how many times and feel lost if I accidently forget my cell phone at home, but I do put a limit on my computer time.

The story of bullying is not new, but in this day, anyone can see your humiliation if it is filmed off a cell phone, camera or computer cam and posted on the internet.  Being bullied is hard enough, knowing that thousands of people are watching your humiliation must be unspeakably devastating!  My heart goes out to the youths and their families who are victims of bullying, because it is hard to fend for yourself when millions are rewinding bullying incidents on Youtube.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Songs From the Heart

Hi Everyone,

I had class tonight and it was another powerhouse class.  We had to memorize a song and perform it as a monologue which is harder than it sounds, due to when I sing songs, I know all the words, but when I actually have to say it without singing I have a hard time remembering the words.  I chose the U2 song, One.  It is a song I identify with for some reason since I first heard it back in 1992.  I remember the video and Bono sitting in a chair as the camera pans farther away from him.

All the songs tonight, brought out these powerful emotions from everyone whether it be sadness, anger, happiness, longing, nostalgia, etc.  I cried 4 times and laughed out loud on some.  What I have been learning through this class is that comedy has nothing to do with laughing out loud, it is all about truth and vulnerability.  This is what Brad is trying to get us to do in our work, be vulnerable.  It has been difficult, but also very rewarding.

Next week we are going to be rehearsing our final scenes.  I am doing a scene from When Harry Met Sally and I am going to be working with my friend, Brandon.  Tomorrow we are going to decide which scene to actually do and try and cut it down to five minutes.  The great and most difficult thing about this will be cutting down the scene, just because WHMS has such great dialogue that is truthful and has stood the test of time.  I am already getting sad that I only have two more weeks of the class.  I can see the progress everyone has made from day one, so it will be strange when it is over.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Monday, October 4, 2010

Breathing Time

Hi Everyone,

Today was the first day of slowing down in my schedule.  Last night was closing night for Candida and it was a fantastic sendoff.  The cast did a phenomenal job and we had a wonderful crowd!  Our director gave us a nice photo album of shots from the play and also a cast and crew photo we took the very first week of performances.  After the show, we broke down the set and drove over to one of the cast members apartments for a little party.  It was nice.

This morning I picked up Kimmie from her friend's house and then got ready for work.  I was only at work for about an hour and a half and then I got cut because it was raining pretty heavily all day.  I drove Kimmie to the airport tonight and now I feel as if I should be doing something, but I don't really have anything planned as of yet for the week.  I think it may be an adjustment having a little more time on my hands now since the show is over and Kimmie is back home.

It was fantastic having Kimmie here.  Her energy is just so feisty and unstopping.  She finished the triathlon and it was as if she went to the gym for an hour.  Her other friends looked as if they were beat and Kimmie was revving to go!  It is crazy!  I am tired for her :)  We tried to get a picture of the Hollywood sign tonight before she had to go the airport, but it was too foggy and she couldn't get it.  But she plans on being back in July so we have something to do next year.

I am beat and I need to do some of my homework for Brad's class for tomorrow, so I am signing off for tonight.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Sunday, October 3, 2010

That's Life

Hi Everyone,

So at work for the past two weeks, business hasn't been the greatest, that I am thinking of looking for another job.  If I am going to be traveling around to classes and shows and such I need to make a little more money, so I feel comfortable, personally.  I was aggrevated at work due to it was so slow and there were only 3 of us on.  And we  were in our Oktoberfest outfits, which would have been fun if the crowd was a little more enthusiastic, but c'est la vie.

Tonight, was the next to last show of Candida and I am going to be sad tomorrow when it ends.  The people are fantastic and I have been raving about them for the past few weeks.  I am going to miss watching the show and talking to the cast.  I have little routines that we all play each night and get to talk one on one with each other and I have a feeling that everyone will go their separate ways and I might see them in the future.  But it sucks when something that was so enjoyable has to end, but c'est la vie.

Kimmie competes in the triathlon tomorrow, so she is staying over at another competitors' house that she befriended last year.  I have never seen the L.A. triathlon, so I am excited to see how it is run compared to NYC and to see if they have big crowds cheering the athletes on.  Having Kimmie here has been a blast and also exhausting.  Kimmie has energy of the energizer bunny and it is crazy.  I forgot she can be that way.  I miss our talks.  It has been great having her around and just sitting in silence or talking about anything.  She is still always running late, compared to me always being early.  She is manic where I am calm.  She is forward when I shy away and she is brash when I am polite and vice versa.  It is strange sometimes to see how we compliment each other and also can be each others' enablers.  Old habits die hard.  But c'est la vie!

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara

Saturday, October 2, 2010

California Adventure

Hi Everyone,

The past two days have been full of excitement and activity.  My good friend Kimmie is in town to compete in the triathlon and she is staying with me.  Yesterday, I had the day off, so Kimmie and I met up with another friend of ours, Sam, in Beverly Hills for lunch.  How California is that?  "I had lunch in Beverly Hills this afternoon."  LOL!  Then Kimmie and I went to Hollywood to go to Grauman's Theatre and take pictures of the Hollywood Walk of Fame.  We did that, but then Kimmie got to get real life pics of John Malkovich,  Diane Lane, Josh Brolin, and John Voight at the premiere of Secritariat happening right across the street from the Chinese Theatre.  After the excitement and surrealness of it all, Kimmie and a few of her friends and I had In and Out Burger, because that is the thing to do if you are from out of town.

Today, I worked in the afternoon and Kimmie and Jen came to visit me at work.  We then went to the beach and enjoyed the power of the Pacific.  The waves were crazy today.  They were high, powerful and whitewater.  I took some really cool pictures of Kimmie in the water.  Then we proceeded to the theatre where I am lighting the show for the last weekend.  I can't believe that Candida is ending already.  It has been a blast!  Jen and Kimmie enjoyed the show and we are now home, exhausted.

Tomorrow,  I get to wear my fraulein get up again for Oktoberfest and hopefully have a good crowd of people.  But for now, I am going to bed.

Until tomorrow.  Take care and be safe.

All my love,

Tara